Thursday, September 13, 2007

So much happening...

I cannot believe that it is almost the middle of the month, yet here I am with just this post for a start. Not that nothing much has happened. In fact, there have been many events, thoughts, words and realizations that I would have wanted to share. Still it's the fact that I really get tired and burned out from work that keeps me from logging in and blogging.

So, let me just share a couple of things. Last Saturday, I met up with elementary classmates for a mini-reunion. It's been quite a while since I last saw them. It was just four girls. But I liked the small group. We weren't awkward talking and sharing and reminiscing. Which reminds me, I got a couple of pics to work on so it can be posted for the others.

That's one. Another is my bank runs, and that's literal. The Boss has this habit of wanting to complete transactions at the last hour and since he trusts no one but me to handle his finances, I end up running up and down, trying to beat the clock to fulfill his wishes. Urrghh... I am too old for this. One time, I made the mistake of ordering him to come down and meet me when it was really one of the staff I wanted. Boohooo... But he's really a good sport about it.

My aunt, sister and I caught the last Travel Mart. As usual it was interesting because you get a sense of going around the country in 3 hours. Lots of brochures, freebies and multi-media presentations. And while we did not intend to spend, there were some buys that were too good to pass up. I even got a neat blouse for P950, and it will help build up my formal and semi-formal wardrobe. Good thing I received one month's salary then.

The last good news is that we are finally up-to-date in our wages. Of course it hurts that my deductions are a bloody P11,000, can you imagine? That's criminal!!! But hey, one day I'm going to get them all back one way or the other.

That's it for now...

Thursday, August 30, 2007

Month's end again!?

Yikes, it's the end of the month again. I can't believe it's been a couple of weeks since I last posted. Been busy with work and last weekend I hied off to the farm with my sister and aunt. That's was a good one.

Hmmm... was busy putting together a last-minute speech for the boss. It's kinda hard to be doing this on regular basis and I hope I can recharge enough because I've got a couple more messages to do.

Anyway, it's a bummer that the phone has been down at home so I can't access the Internet. Good thing the broadband at work is now working. Sorry to be taking advantage of it. But I'm unwinding anyway. It's a Thursday and the end of another work week. It will be gruelling next week so I gotta be prepared.

Saturday, August 18, 2007

Non-stop rain

Since last night, the rain has continued to pour and flood most of the metropolis. The kids have been out of school for 3 days out of 5. And on Monday, it's a national holiday again. Wow, long weekend, but very WET since the weather bureau has warned to expect continuous rains over the next three days.

On the positive side, it's very cool, at times cold, and it's kept everyone at home mostly. But with the kids in the house, they're getting wild about being trapped inside and you can only huddle in bed for so long.

I hope damage will be as minimal as possible in areas prone to flooding and landslides. And with government kinda short in funds lately, following the mid-term elections, they're gonna have to scrounge for funds to give out relief goods, relocate, conduct rescue missions, etc.

I'm really thankful for God's grace and mercy that he watched over my dad's journey from his long bus trip and kept us all safe and warm with a roof on our heads, albeit one that leaks in certain places.

I'm getting to the creative part soon...

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

What typhoon?

This is so weird... There's supposed to be a typhoon that's bringing with it monsoon rains. Except for the one heavy downpour this morning, and rainshowers later in the afternoon, NADA. But guess what? They sent kids home from school in the middle of the day, and just after lunch suspended work in government offices.

However, there are reports that in some areas the floods have been terrible and traffic jams are really bad. So, the moral of the story is: be grateful. I am, I am. At least, coming home is just a few minutes away and I didn't have to sit through traffic or get drenched in rain and slosh in the floods.

The best part is: it's Wednesday today! Hurray! With just a day more to go, it will be a really long weekend since Monday is once again a holiday. With payday a long way off (in September yet, can you imagine?) that sure is welcome news.

Thursday, August 9, 2007

Home Early

I mean, very early as in 3:30 pm. And this rare feat I accomplished because I had to deliver the BOSS' ticket to him at a hotel where he is attending a roundtable symposium. He did say for me to go home after we settled everything. But I really was planning to go home early just to offset the three days of coming home late and under driving rain.

I also told the kids at the office to leave early, anyway there isn't much going on there. I love Thursdays!

Good thing I learned that my name isn't on the list for initial salaries yet because I also found out I need a certificate from the Cashiering for my last salary. This is the only document missing so they can also process my initial salary covering the month of July.

Wow, funds are really tight and I can feel it, especially with my mother breathing down my back. Another "creditor" who was asking for a partial payment called up and I finally told her I hadn't received my salary for the last one-and-a-half months. That shut her up.

Well, there will probably be more realiable equipment at the office next week, and with a printer available we can get things done there quicker without me having to bring home homework, unless really necessary.

We filed our first bill, too, and hey the move to another office is also doing my health and body good. Quite a few have noticed, even if I haven't.

Here's to the end of another work week...

Tuesday, August 7, 2007

Stormy weather

This very moment, the storm is upon us now. The power went out for about 5 minutes, thank God for the UPS. I can hear the rain lashing just outside the window, the wind howling and raindrops slamming on the roof. Everyone is asleep, but I wonder how long they can ignore the storm.

It was a bugger coming home because the rain was falling in torrents and I had a walk ahead of me. Drat the public works people for waiting till the rainy season to undergo road widening that has shut off the shorter entrance to the subdivision. I had no choice but take the "long cut" and in the process, got soaking wet, my shoes all muddied and yucky.

While I appreciate the ride up to the main highway, I wish the people who owned the vehicle were more sensitive seeing as the rain was pouring. If it had been me, I would have driven my passenger to their doorstep in that kind of downpour.

On one hand, rain is good because the drought has threatened to leave us with rationed water supply. So while the water reservoirs may not be filling up to the brim, at least it's working up to a manageable level.

But while rain cools the surroundings, I hate it because our streets aren't rain-friendly. I'm just really glad I had my jacket and didn't get any more wet than necessary considering I'm just recovering from my bout with cold and cough.

I'll be hitting the sack in a bit, and I sure hope the rain slackens so I can sleep in silence.

Thoughts on Motherhood

I've just had a crying spell. Good thing it's midnight and no one could hear me. My sister and I were just talking about our nephews and niece and how their mother -- our sister -- treats her kids. Actually, unless you know she's their mother, it wouldn't really show based on how she deals with them and treats them.

My sister related how she witnessed oldest boy and mother going through the motions of homework, when the parent has absolutely no patience with the kid and how it of course impacted on the boy. It's a never-ending cycle, as far as I'm concerned. Mother does not really teach or help out, she orders him to do the work, without taking time to check if he understands the lessons or if he needs to be more familiar with the concepts. End result? She gets exasperated, irritated and ends up beating up the boy when he becomes difficult.

For one, I would have wanted for the boy to take a nap first before tackling homework. That way, he would have shaken off the school mode, relaxed and rested before facing school work again. But mother has no patience to lie with him until he sleeps, neither will she make him milk immediately upon arriving so he can nap.

That's just the tip of the iceberg. What triggered the crying spell was realizing she has never shown much affection to any of her kids, but is content on treating them like soldiers -- sans emotions. Looking back, I know I get angry and exasperated with the boys, too, and sometimes, I have to resort to spanking them, but in spite this they remain close to me. Unlike their mother, whom they barely hug or kiss. I guess it's because I make it a point to explain to them why I was angry and why they were punished. After, I never forget to hug them and show affection just so they know they are loved.

This entry will sound disjointed because I do feel terrible about the situation. I realize the reason why I don't have kids of my own is because my purpose is to care for these kids and show them the love, respect, and care that they need and deserve. And I do believe that not all women are made to be mothers...

Thursday, August 2, 2007

Winding up...

Another work week ended. It seems my extra workload from the old office was even more than my present one. Hmmm. Well the good news is I got my LAST SALARY -- meaning my pay for the period June 16-30, 2007. Can you imagine that... it is now August and I'm just receiving my paycheck for June. So go figure when payday will normalize or better yet, when my initial salary will be released. Am I glad I submitted all my papers as early as the 2nd week of July. Because everyone at the new office hasn't completed theirs yet. Yikes, and good luck to you guys.

The bad news is my mother has been waiting in the wings for my salary to pay off debts. I haven't gotten around to writing about THAT, and I'm just waiting for the right frame of mind. I do feel bad, however, to be working to settle debts that aren't mine in the first place, but inherited because I was left holding the bag.

Okay, am waiting to cash out some again from online investments and scouting around for more of the steady, honest and reliable ones. Check my other blog, GUIDED INCOME OPPORTUNITIES, if interested.

Wednesday, August 1, 2007

Much-Needed Break

GOD is good, all the time. Since last week, we've been leaving the office way too late. Today, as he told me, the BOSS is absent. And the little BOSS, too. And for the first time in weeks, we left the office at 5 p.m. Wow! Achievement.

I was really praying early this morning that I could head for home early, thinking we were going out tonight. But with an aunt and niece visiting, that might not push through either. Still, it's good to be home before dark. And everyone seems to be cooperating as we had very few callers at the office.

It's really a much-needed break.

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Last Day of the Month

I just wanted to post on the last day of the month...

As is getting to be the habit, we left the office after everyone else has, and that was already 9 p.m. Geesh, if there's anything I miss at the old office, it's the fact that we never really leave too late at night. Things had better change because we'll burn out fast with this habit.

And why are there so many letters to write for the other office? Sigh. Now I really look forward to my weekends because of this late dismissal. I wish the new BOSS would come in earlier so he can finish earlier and the second boss and anyone else will not tarry around... I mean, we're okay but it's not fair to be hanging around too late when all else have gone home.

Well, I better hit the sack and wake up early tomorrow to finish up everything the other office needs. Hmmm, I better think up of some compensation from them guys.

Sunday, July 29, 2007

A New Week Ahead...

It's 10 pm here and after this, I'll be hitting the sack to get ready for Monday, and a new week. I sure hope it won't be as trouble-laden as the last.

I have a couple of letters to do for the OTHER office, but I wanted the weekend to be just rest and relaxation so it can wait tomorrow when I'm in the working mode.

A bright spot on this day? Received my withdrawal request from an online investing program, one which gave me a scare a few weeks back, but has since proven to be reliable and steady. I really, REALLY hope they hang in there and more people will benefit from their service and expertise. Interested about them? Visit GIO.

With all the news about scams in online investing, I'm so wary about inviting locals to try their luck with reliable programs, sigh! You know, you don't want to be blamed in case it doesn't turn out the way they expect things to work out. We'll see. I have to cash out first, show them proof and then maybe, if the programs continue, they'll be enticed...

Well, I've taken up more time than I intended for this post... Till next.

Saturday, July 28, 2007

How The Rain Poured

The skies have cleared from 3 or 4 hours ago. It was bad then when the rain came down in torrents. Worse because we needed to drive out (me, my sister and nugget niece... again). With the main subdivision gate impassable due to road-widening construction, we had to take the longer and more traffic-congested route. It probably wouldn't have been such a hassle if it wasn't raining, but God had other plans.

Which makes me wonder: if it rains this way in the next couple of days, will the water level at the reservoir increase enough to ward off the impending water crisis? Hmmm.

We ended up going through a circuitous route just to be able to get all our errands accomplished. The bummer was having only one umbrella in the car. And since I had to drop off my two passengers at the entrance, they got the umbrella and I was left with a slicker, which was no match for the next phase of the downpour.

Our weekends sure are interesting and adventurous. I've been taking catnaps to recover from the hectic week, but playing marshall to two rambunctious boys takes its toll on you. I wish the kids would take a break, too. Sigh!

Rain is welcome tonight to cool things off...

Thursday, July 26, 2007

The Week That Was

It is only Thursday, but I consider it the end of my (work) week. And what a hectic week it was! I liken it to a roller coaster ride, because you know there will be highs and lows, but are never really prepared for the actual thing.

Monday had me up and early -- as in I was at work by 7:30 AM. And THAT was pretty early for me. By the time I arrived, I was up on my feet running around the complex, sweating like a pig, going up and down the stairs. And just when I thought everything was fine and dandy, I learn things just aren't so. It took another round of running and climbing before I got everything under control.

When things were getting busy around me, I get a really strange call from F, who is offering me 10k to be a consultant with the old BOSS. The thing is if it didn't come from him, I might have accepted. I was considering it, okay, but when he pulls this prank of where the hell are you, I want to see you because I want a letter written, that did it for me. No amount of money can compensate for the abuse that he can heap on me if I accept. I want respect and I won't get that from him. So I end up telling F, I will help you and the other guys out, just don't harass me and I won't do it for money but friendship and old time's sake.

Now back to the new BOSS. He's okay, a greenhorn and you have to hold his hand in a lot of things, but a quick study. I like that he's polite and respectful even when tense, and I may have overstepped my bounds a few times, but he seems okay. What I do NOT like are his bodyguards, who don't act like they are. They sit around the office, entertain VISITORS, mind the official stuff going on even when it does not involve them and are just plain pain in the **s! Hey they even insist that we have to be the BOSS' close-in when it's their job. The nerve!

I am only glad they've flown to the province and will not be back for a couple of weeks at least so we can have some peace and quiet. They really grate on my nerves.

Work is coming along, and there is the added work of helping out F and the others. I've been coming home a bit later than usual, but I don't mind. The BOSS isn't harassing me or anyone anyway...

Now, if only I didn't have to run into undesirable people...

Saturday, July 21, 2007

ICE DROPS!

It rained ice! I say it with an exclamation point because we live in the Philippines - a tropical country where snow is unheard of. It has been bloody humid the whole morning, and with an overcast sky, we really were expecting rain.

But it caught us all by surprise when the first raindrops began to fall. They sounded so huge because the splattering they created on the roof was unusual. Still it was a couple of minutes more before I looked out the window and saw ice chips raining on us.

Wow! The boys who were taking naps were roused to witness this amazing and unusual incident. My mom, who has seen her share of snow in the States, excitedly picked up ice chips that scattered outside the kitchen door.

This was quite an experience and I don't know how the weather bureau will explain the phenomenon. But I loved it because the air had cooled down considerably and the humidity level dropped. Of course, it could be dangerous for people outdoors who may have been caught unaware and might have been hit by the ice chips.

Well, rain, ice, rain, ice... that was nice.

A long-awaited reunion

I've had difficulty accessing my blogger account yesterday so I gave up even if I really wanted to post. Anyway, I just had to write about a long-awaited reunion with one of my very few trusted friends. D has actually been badgering me for months to get together. The problem is she lives and works so far away.

But yesterday, I finally needed to go to her area and it would be cruel not to drop by and have lunch with her. Anyway, I appreciated the Licensing Center I went up to because it took less than a hour to have my driver's license renewed. It was quite a ways off, but I didn't mind the travel given that I did not have to wait the whole day to get it. So, congratulations guys.

D was thinking I wasn't really gonna drop by, so she was really excited when her staff announced my arrival. We've known each other for 20 years and while there have been stretches of time when we did not talk or see each other or even send text messages, it's as if we never lost touch. I know she will be always be someone I can run to, talk to and hang out with if the need ever arose. I helped get her wedding together, okay, and her only son is my godson, so we're really close.

As always, it was good catching up with each other's lives and we always enjoy the company, the chitchat, the discussion. And since we managed to start this "reunion" it probably won't be a hardship to get together regularly. I love D, and am really thankful we met and became good friends.

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Church Hopping

My sister and I and our little nugget of a niece went around three churches this pm. Are we so holy that we'll shoot out of heaven? We wish... It was for a project I took on in June but have not gotten around to working on, so today was the perfect day.

We were asking around if parishes would allow us to set up a table for a small exhibit to promote Catholic Digest, a magazine sort of like Reader's Digest, but with a Christian slant. Most were receptive and advised us to send our letter request/proposal, which the parish priests will review.

The problem now is the people who will man these tables... It will be kind of difficult to have someone stationed in them with peanuts for compensation because they will be giving up their Sunday.

But hey, one thing I do know and trust in is that God will eventually allow things to fall into place, if he really means for it to be.

And yes, in our church hopping, we did stop by to hear mass with the little one. My was she a bullet! But she enjoyed our little outing just the same.

Saturday, July 14, 2007

An experiment with... wine

I was asked to write a short press release for a restaurant that wanted to conduct a basic wine education course. It completely slipped my mind because of the many things happening at work and my bout with bronchitis. They called me again last night and I put one together hurriedly, which I hope will still be worth their while.

Anyway, I want to experiment about content. This article is heavy on certain keywords and I wanna check if this makes a difference with Google. In case you happen to be around Manila when they do conduct one course, you might want to check this out...

Basic Wine Education Course at Lemuria

After your first few experiences with wine, you’re ready to learn more. And if you were acquainted with wines at Lemuria, the gourmet fine dining restaurant, you’re in for a treat. This year-old restaurant is making a name for its exceptional cuisine, but this is perfectly complemented by the wide range of wine choices from Brumms Quality Wines, Inc.

Lemuria will be offering a Basic Wine Education Course, called “Cheers to the Grapes” with lectures and of course, the actual wine tasting. And you can’t have it any better because the venue, one of the function rooms at Lemuria, will be set up almost similar to the wine tasting areas in wineries at Napa Valley.

Six wines, representing the major grapes that Filipino wine drinkers are likely to encounter, will be used for the tasting component of the course. These include:

Sauvignon Blanc St. Clair Pioneer Block I
Reisling Robert Weil Kabinett 2005
Chardonnay McManis
Pinot Noir Au Bon Climat Santa Barbara 2005
Cabernet Sauvignon Montes Alpha Cabernet Sauvignon
Shiraz Mitolo The Jester Shiraz

The first wine education course is set for July **, 2007. Only 10 participants per session will be accommodated for the two-and-a-half-hour course, which starts at 6:30 p.m. The fee is PhP ****** per person, inclusive of the wines to be sampled. ************ will guide you in this special wine course.

Leave with the knowledge that you’ve learned the wines and their distinctive characteristics, and are ready to be adventurous in your next wine drinking experience.

To reserve your slot for “Cheers to the Grapes,” please contact… Lemuria is located at The Winery, #5 Julieta Drive, Horseshoe Village, Quezon City.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

2 Days to Breathe

Yesterday, I was "forced" to come in to the new office because the new BOSS was supposedly dropping by. No problem, I said I'd show up after lunch. While eating, I got a very sweet text message from F, who wanted to know if I was sick. Of course, she was very concerned but I told her I was getting better. She's upset about goings on at the old office (nothing new really) and she was emphatic about really missing me. My last reply was that I couldn't wait for her to get out of there...

With no furniture and equipment at the new office, I just spent time getting my appointment papers in order so I can be ready to receive a salary as soon as possible. The problem with bureaucracy is that it takes them forever to process what is due to workers, insisting on red tape that isn't really necessary.

Still, it was relaxing and stress-free to be in an office that wasn't as demanding as the last one. And I really needed the break. I do feel for those left behind because they really are groping what with the move to the new office and coping without me around.

Well...

Tuesday, July 10, 2007

Sick, Sick, Sick

I really am and have been since Thursday evening. It's bronchitis and of the worst kind. You know, hard to breathe and exhausted even just with a few steps taken. And the spasmodic coughing is a killer, especially in the middle of the night. Well, blame it on the weather -- it's always gloomy every morning, then the sun peeks out but takes cover every 15 minutes or so. And then there's rain. Sigh!

And besides last week was stress and tension-filled what with the leaving and the intrigues following my way. Well, you really cannot please everybody and you will die trying. Me, as long as I know I've done my job and helped those that needed my assistance, I'm cool with it. Still, it sucks because even when you closet yourself from all the talk, there is still bound to be some...

I'm thankful the new office understands my situation... but the work still comes and I can already see a pattern here. I know I always have a CHOICE whether to keep at it or go and do something else. We'll see...

Meantime, I'm drinking a lot -- of water, tea and any other liquid available around the house. And visiting the john as often, too. Of course, it will help when the people who need to be around are back so I can really kick back and rest.

By the way, it's my sister's BIG day today. With 3 kids all demanding attention one way or another, I hope she gets a break, too.

Friday, July 6, 2007

Earning online

I want to take a rest from my work woes and try something else for a change...

How about online earning? Now that I am a little excited about. I have been for some time now dabbling in online money making opportunities. Unfortunately, I've had more misses than hits in the past couple of months. Translated: quite a bit of cash lost. But I like to think positive so I keep searching...

I don't know if it's because I've sought divine guidance that in the past three months or so, I have come across some internet programs that are still hanging on there. There was one that I really thought was the real thing, but it went pfft in smoke, too. That cost me around $40, ouch! So now I'm trying to recover most of my losses with a couple of programs that seem to be kind to me.

Right now, that is my main goal in online investing: recover my past losses. Once I am able to do that, then I can use my current earnings to stay on with reliable programs and increase my investments so that hopefully, I can be earning something substantial and doing things I really love to do and not things I am forced to because of the paycheck.

If you may be interested in what these programs are, please check out my other blog: GIO. Nothing big or fancy but if you care to take a risk, even with minimal amounts, then please join me.

Wednesday, July 4, 2007

It Dawned on Me...

That the reason why this job stresses me a lot is because more than just my actual functions, I have been a shock absorber, sounding board, counselor, adviser and what have you. It seems most everyone at the office is depending on me especially during crunch time and I'm absorbing all the negative vibes thus the stress.

Even when the Boss doesn't really harp on me or shout at me or curse me, I still end up feeling dejected because whoever was at the receiving end of his wrath will transmit it to me, either in person, over the phone or through text messages. And I really absorb them all.

Today was no different... the Boss suddenly on a whim (of course) decided he wanted to leave for Beijing tomorrow! It was 3 p.m. when I got the call about this. Another one of those goals where you need a miracle. Because he stressed his assistance, she in turn runs to me for help and advice. While I am at this office, I can never really ignore this. So the best thing to do is GET OUT.

Tuesday, July 3, 2007

The Deed is Done

And my instincts were right on the dot... I knew it would be difficult -- for me and for the guys at the office -- to swallow the fact that I will, indeed, be leaving and moving somewhere else.

The first, and most important, person who learned of this refused to believe me. But when she realized I wasn't kidding, she cried. I couldn't help but be touched. She is actually the one big reason why I decided to hang on for several more months, even when I had already contemplated on leaving. I knew she depended heavily on me for support (moral and everything else) and when I go, she feels her work burden will be more difficult. Much as I hate to leave them, I don't think I can stand being in a work environment where the boss doesn't want to get a grip on the important things yet bothers himself with all flimsy and inconsequential stuff. It is also very demoralizing for him to always be punctuating most of his sentences with expletives. Demeaning...

When word got around that I would be leaving, there were of course questions as to why I decided to leave them behind. that's kinda hard to answer because I really don't want to leave behind a group, which I firmly believe I helped become a unit. Sadly, there are other considerations for staying on in a job.

Yeah, I can't help being teary-eyed because 15 months is 15 months however way you look at it. I knew they all looked up to me for guidance and support and while it pains me to break this bond, I need to breathe and take care of my health.

Of course, there will be adjustments and I'm not even sure I will actually last in this new office but then life is an adventure, with a certain amount of risk. And I truly believe this was the path God had laid out for me. My purpose for being with my office now is to touch the lives of my co-workers. Maybe, I've served it already.

Monday, July 2, 2007

Time to Decide

Yep, it really is. But I did not think it would be this difficult. Yesterday, I got a call saying my appointment papers for the new employer was already available. Available for what?! I didn't even know it was a done deal, because I was waiting for a call back after I submitted my test work.
Boy do I have cold feet now. The appointment papers are now with me, waiting to be filled up. The thing is my re-appointment papers are also up for the BOSS' signature. And they're packing up and getting ready to move to the new office.

In truth, because of the unsystematic way they run the projects of the BOSS, it really is very frustrating. There, too, are the BOSS' whimsical ways. These are actually the factors that make me want to consider the change. But then there are the people I work with. Well, maybe I've already served my purpose in this office and it's time to move on. Tomorrow, I really must inform someone of the decision.

And booh, I hate being in this position... What I am now praying for is to be able to raise the necessary resources so that I needn't have to be in the service. With God's guidance, I hope things will fall into place soon.

Saturday, June 30, 2007

Call for Help

Attending to requests for assistance -- financial or otherwise -- is one of our functions at the office. Serving a congressional district has been an eye-opener for me because I've come to realize how lucky I am in many ways.

Not a week passes that we do not attend to relatives of patients suffering from a gamut of medical problems that require medication, hospitalization, surgery, chemotherapy, dialysis and what have you. We don't actually give out cash, because the office would be bankrupt if this were the case, but referral letters to agencies that provides assistance of this nature. My heart especially goes out to kids who are very sick, and whose parents are all but in tears begging for help.

I remember last December when a desperate man came into the office late in the afternoon, short of breath because he was trying to catch our next-door neighbors. Unfortunately for him, they left earlier. I can't recall if the patient was his wife or father, who really needed money for treatment and whose health was failing. He was struggling to hold back tears as he related how he had been everywhere trying to raise the funds needed for this crisis.

Dealing with this day in and day out, we have to steel ourselves so we don't break down or give in to all the drama every time. But there are just instances when their plight tugs at the heartstrings and you go one step further.

I didn't have it in my heart to turn away our late visitor without extending monetary assistance. His gratitude was just as touching so I knew I had done right at that moment. A few months later, he came by again and I was afraid he would be asking for help a second time. He didn't. Instead, he dropped by purposely to seek me out, extend his gratitude once more and relay the news that the patient eventually passed away in spite his efforts.

Sometimes, what we do to help others may not necessarily save them. But the thought that you shared whatever you can, and this is appreciated by those who needed help, is comforting enough.

There are many more cases of people seeking help and I sincerely wish I can do something to help ease their burdens. It may not necessarily be extending monetary assistance, but a giving of my talent and time to find ways to channel help to them. And I hope, too, that someone out there who may happen to read about these people will find it in their hearts to share.

A Special Birthday

My nephew -- by a cousin -- turned 7 yesterday. Wow, big deal, 7-years-old. Until two days ago I had no idea how BIG a deal it really was... I learned the boy has never had a birthday party growing up. And now that he was reaching a milestone (kids should have a party when they turn 1 and 7 at least) there was again the danger that he wouldn't be having a party on this special day.

For the life of me, I couldn't really figure out why this poor kid has yet to experience a birthday party. My aunt, who lives next door to the boy, explained that since his b-day falls on June 29, this has always been a bad time funds-wise.

One, because school has just opened and with two of them studying, money will logically be used to enroll them. Unfortunately, unlike in America where primary education is free in public schools, it costs quite a bit to put kids through good schools here in the Philippines. Two, payday is on the 15th and 30th of the month -- so on the 29th, chances are the paycheck hasn't come. Third and more significant is the fact that they've had a very difficult life and it has only been a year when my cousin was able to get a good-paying job abroad, enough to give his young family a comfortable life. And even then, because funds have been limited the past years, there are still obligations to settle at this point in time. So, there...

Since I felt that throwing a simple party for him was not going to cost me an arm and a leg, and my nephews and niece, courtesy of my sister, would enjoy the visit to their cousins, I decided to give him a little surprise. After all, it didn't take much to create a party for him -- cake with candles to blow, ice cream, cocktail hotdogs and soda -- to give him his first birthday party experience, so off we went.

My sister also thought of lending him her son's super-hero costume (The Flash) at least for the candle blowing session, so he could really get a feel of a birthday party. And I was right. The boy was grinning ear-to-ear in excitement. It may have set me back a couple of hundred, but the smile on his face was all worth it. And the kids enjoyed each other's company, watching home movies, playing badminton and just horsing around.

Now that's my kind of birthday party... you don't need a lot of time to set it up, and you don't need much for it to be a hit with kids. Best of all, you achieve the goal of making the celebrant feel special on this important day.

Happy Birthday, Mico!

Thursday, June 28, 2007

Out of sorts

After the excitement early in the week, I feel like I'm vacillating towards one thing or another that I can't put my finger on. It must be because of the expected changes that are forthcoming.

First and most important is moving to another office, as in working for someone else, if things work out all right. I guess my worry is the adjustments necessary with a new work environment and new co-workers, if ever. I realize I've grown attached to this bunch of guys I'm working with now and we have established a bond that surprises even myself. So until everything is final, I sort of don't want to think about it, but can't help myself.

Secondly, is the longing and the drive to do something else entirely. This means junking office work again and going at it on my own -- doing what I like best, writing. See, I know that once I pick up on it again, it will slowly burn and kindle this need in me. Unfortunately, drafting letters and reports about constituent needs is not fulfilling. It can be very stagnating, too.

But then, there is the fear that I may not make the grade when I apply online, especially because it's a foreign company I am applying with, and clients from other countries with requirements I may not be familiar with, that I will be dealing with. So there's caution and trepidation.

The one thing driving me crazy is I cannot stand working for the BOSS much longer because of his demanding and whimsical ways, which turns everyone and everything topsy-turvy. And it worries me even more that the guys at the office no longer seem to want to get out. I swear, 5 years from now, they may regret the decision. Perhaps it's the thought that this is the last 3 year-term and they would rather just stick it out.

I never really saw myself with government for a long time. I see too many things that don't sit well with me and being in it, you can't help but be part of it, even when they are wrong, uncomfortable or downright stupid.

So I don't know what to do or feel or think or say... I guess I can only be thankful there are choices, as opposed to none. One bright spot for my day -- it's PAYDAY! Or something like that.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007

Miracles do happen

As an addendum to yesterday's post, the real nightmare happened today. Again, it was Murphy's Law that prevailed. The concerned persons who were supposed to help us out were nowhere to be found. And I knew that if the passport was to be released, it would be just in the nick of time.

But life is always full of surprises. In the confusion about changing companions, the airline reservation was made for the wrong companion! Yes, sir. 30 minutes before the plane was supposed to leave, we discover too late the booking was in the wrong name. Only a MIRACLE could save us this time.

Suffice it to say, after much tension, butterflies in everyone's stomach, cajoling, pleading, begging, arguing and shouting, everyone was able to leave as scheduled. I will no longer detail what it took to accomplish this, except to say it cost another $347.

Yes, God is truly good all the time. And this time, even if deep in my heart, the situation did not really warrant a miracle, He still came up with one. And in behalf of everyone whose nerves were frazzled, I say thank you, dear Lord.

Oh there were many lessons learned about the experience the last two days. We are all definitely much wiser because of it. But I am CERTAIN no one wants to go through such nightmare again.

One thing all of us agreed on at the office: we can definitely put up our own travel agency.

Monday, June 25, 2007

One Man's Travel

The BOSS has this annoying habit of wanting to take a trip and ordering last minute bookings... as if we were a travel agency. We had actually been preparing for a trip to Beijing since last week. The flight reservations had been confirmed and we had booked him at the hotel of his choice, for a price that is reasonable by his standards.

The problem came Thursday evening when he decided to change his travel companion. It shouldn't have been a hassle if this companion already had a passport. She didn't and this is where all the mayhem started. An authenticated birth certificate is necessary to apply for a passport. Our liaison managed to get this in less than a day and off they went to the passport division office. Everyone thought there would be no problem and once released this morning, it could be rushed to the Embassy for visa processing.

But then there is Murphy's Law... And just when we thought everything was in order, it wasn't. The passport could not be released on time, because of a discrepancy and horror or horrors, the BOSS insisted he wanted to leave tomorrow. For Beijing, where you need a visa. How cool is that?

No amount of explanation could convince him to bring someone else who already had a visa, and he kept on insisting to move heaven and earth to have the passport released TODAY and secure the visa in 2 hours time tomorrow. Worse, he wants to leave on the 7:30 AM flight! See, not even REAL travel agencies can perform this kind of miracle.

When he finally accepted that this was going to be impossible, he settled on a trip to Bangkok, where you do not need a visa for a four-day visit. Still, there is the problem of releasing the passport in time for their 11:30 am departure. By some miracle, a travel agent got us the plane seats, but had difficulty reserving the hotel of his choice. There were a hundred and one other things to handle, just for this 4-day trip... worse than handling the foreign travel of a president.

As of this writing, the tickets and vouchers are not yet in our hands and it will be a long wait for the executive assistant who begged and pleaded with the agent to do everything so these would be delivered TONIGHT. I'm sorry for her because she's developed a migraine and her stomach must be roiling with gastric juice for the tension and stress all this is causing her. Her misfortune is having to deal with the BOSS, and everyone else was busy with the travel arrangements. My head was swimming and my throat almost dried up when I learned what he wanted done.

But that's the BOSS' way. Since he never really handles the arrangements for his trips, he believes with all his heart they all happen at a snap of the finger. Figures how much he knows... And the real BUMMER? Many times, he decides not to go on the day he has to leave. Dig that!

Sunday, June 24, 2007

Off to the mall

My sister and I needed to get away from the house today. We were thinking somewhere far off so it would be difficult to have us back home quickly. But we ended up checking out the new mall not far from our place. We went around for about 2 hours, had a late lunch thinking everyone would be done by then (but not, waaah!) browsed at National Bookstore for a bit, and ended our day out with mass.

Now back to the mall experience... I'm not quite sure why it's called Trinoma. I'll look it up anyway. I do know it was built by Ayala Land, which "created" the malls in Makati City, which is across town from us. It's very new world and trendy and despite its size, Filipinos just manage to fill it up, especially on weekends. And by filled, I'm not saying all the shops are already open, okay?

It's a pretty cool place, figuratively and literally. But also very upscale. We have been to it previously, a couple of weeks ago, for my small niece's haircut. Just across the street from it, the SM City and The Block, which used to lord it over in the area, was probably miserable because of the new competition. But trust the people here, they'll be back to SM in no time. Curiousity, you know...

I like the fact that they've landscaped the area, so it's not just shops and shops. They have multi-level parking areas, but which are not quite enjoyable to navigate. And because the place is so huge, it would take us more trips before we can familiarize ourselves with the layout and exits. As my aunt says, she will not set a date at Trinoma for fear she and her date will never find each other.

And I just had this brilliant but expensive idea of what to do at Trinoma. Bring one thousand pesos (around $20) and try out as many goodies as possible from the restos and fastfoods and food outlets scattered at the mall. Feel guilty about overindulging? Just explore the entire mall while brisk walking and you can burn the extra calories.


I missed writing...

It has been a very long while since I really sat down to write something of importance to me. My thoughts, feelings, crazy ideas, yadah, yadah.

Not that I haven't really been writing. It's what I do at work. But after more than 365 days and counting, the things I need to get on paper are either "half-truths," down-right lies or pathetic appeals to get something for somebody, usually moolah, and I mean a LOT.

However, I think I needed the break badly. But once it's in you, you can take a break from it but never really forget it. So, because I missed WRITING terribly, here I am. I've done previous blogs before and they were more thematic... now I feel I just need to get things down on paper -- okay, virtual paper -- for my sake, and hopefully for others out there who may find something of substance in what they will read.

I may have stopped writing for a while, but I have not stopped seeing, nor looking, hearing or feeling. Afterall, I still am ALIVE. And in the course of time that I was on haitus, I've seen quite a lot of things, either heartwarming or disconcerting that keeps me pondering about life, and my purpose here on earth.

One thing I do understand is that God has given me a gift and I have the responsibility to use it in the best way I can as this is the only way to thank Him for his generosity. So I hope you join me in this renewed journey as I See With My Eyes...